Saturday, September 10, 2011

Welcome to SHINee World Concert Nanjing (part 2)

Okay.. Let's continue the fun! hahahahaa...

At the second part of the show - that's how I call it - all members took up the stage individually to perform their solo. Taemin came up first with Taemin's version of Romeo. And this is fuuunn.. I love Taem's clear and bright voice. A little kiddy voice. But whoever the coordinoona or costume designer should go to hell! i hate Taemin's outfit to the max!! to the maaaaaxxxxx!!! he looks soo freaking skinny!

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Next to heat the stage is JongHyun. Tough I expect him to DJ-ing like in Seoul concert, he choose to sing duet with Zhang Liyin. Not bad but i barely enjoy the duet. They both have high pitch and it is so no no during the refrain. bye byeee.. and JongHyun, being JongHyun, stand at the far corner from my stage. Much to my dismay cause I need his pictures for Tia

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and the HOT HOT HOT comes next! Baby Minho is smooching all the fans with solo dance performance of Oh My Gosh! no further comments.. *dies already*

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still numb from previous performance, I senses were fired back to life after set eyes on pinky Taemin! he looks... drag! hahaahahahaha.. Key's solo performance featuring Taemin brings alot more laughter the crowd as they were pretending to be a couple. Those little kids made me laaaauuuggghhh!! hahahaahahahaha.. but i have to admit, Taemin looks reaaalllyy pretty!

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As I am expecting Onew's solo come afterward, "A-Yo" become a huge huge surprise!! Not only this is my favorite song, this is so far SHINee's most loveliest song. I loooveee every bits of A-Yo. And their performance in Nanjing certainly bring me to tears. I didn't give a shit taking picture of them. Just me follow the bits and dance. I finally can wave that hands up in the air and looooveeee... Thank you boys.. You made me happy for once again. Thank you... Thank you... You never know just how much that song help me in the darkest point of my life. Thank you SHInee.. Thank you...

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Welcome to SHINee World Concert Nanjing (part1)

I know it's been a month since I celebrated the joy of SHINee World Concert in Nanjing. But the cheers, the fan chant, the joy last for long. Till date, I can still imagined how close my hand to Minho and Taemin. Seeing Minho appears before my own eyes as an angel is an amazing experience. But what most important is that attending SHINee World Concert is one of my dreams. And coming to SHINee's concert in Nanjing is a dream coming true.

I took flight to Nanjing as early as 13 August 2011. No direct flight from Indonesia to Nanjing. So I took one via HongKong. 12 hours is what I took to be in Nanjing. And at the gate of the old city, stand my very own best friend Kisi who flew from Beijing to be with me during my stay in Nanjing. It is another dream coming true. After 11 months of separation, I once again able to stand side by side with my best friend. I miss her so much and coming to Nanjing is the only way to be with her again.

Kisi knows exactly how I have been crazy about SHINee for the past year. She voluntarily bought me the concert ticket, the one closet to the stage. So much that she loves me (hahahaha..).. her choice of sea is perfect! Located on the terrace 17, on the right wing, is the stage where Minho appeared the most. He loves to stay in that part, by the way. hahahahaha...

The concert started 10 minutes late. No wonder all fans were feeling nervous. We continuously chanting "SHINee...SHINee..SHINee"... and some of us yelling "we want SHINeeeeee..." Exactly at 19.40 Nanjing time, the boys hit the stage with "SHINee World". I lost my mind at the time.. so don't ask me how it goes. They appeared from the main stage and look as small as it could be. Followed by "Senorita" and "Get Down"! I personally looooveeee Senorita. They put a hype on it and rock the concert.

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kkkaaaayyyyyyyaaaa..... Minho for the first time come to my side of stage. Sooooo happy! my gosh, he looks gorgeous! *fangirlingmodeon* Get it down, Minho!!

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The boys didn't seems to be tired so they decided to continue with A.MI.GO. And this is the first time they lift themself up in the air! JongHyun was on my side of stage but not that long.

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There we have "Juliette" and "Hello" after that. Both were sang in its original Korean version despite of many hoping that they will sing the two songs in Japanese version. Considering both were recently released in Japan. Anywaaaaayyy... I don't mind having them in Korean at all.

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Shinee's Hello is always my personal favorite =) While singing Hello, they sit down in some kind of white chair on the main stage. I didn't pay attention to the screen behind them because it only reflects their movement in shadow mode. But heelllooo..the second part is cool. The shadow was replaced by their image but not in real life. Still, when each members sing their part, lots of screams and chants coming from the crowd. Of course, i scream the loudest each time Minho sang but as he sang not that much, I saved my voice for the latter part of the show. wekekekeke...

After that, the boys take the break and brought about the ability to speak Chinese. Not that I admire their talent, but the word they said the loudest is "Binnaneun SHINee imnida" which of course their trade mark. And some chinese like Ni Hao! hahahaha...


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The interview was short and not really impressive. The impressive show comes next. They were back in their previous Hello Positon and start singing "Your Name". I didn't recall this song being presented during SWC Tokyo but anyway, i like the setting. Angel setting for the first time. I tought that Angel song is the only one the use the angel-theme background, but i guess i was wrong. hahahahaha... and Minho like sing too! a line or so! waaaakakakaka...

"Stand by Me" comes next. Korean version like what we all expected, tough Japanese version once again could serve better! me and my Japan bias. hehehehehe... and look who's coming to my stage. Diva KEY! my God, I swear that he is the easiest to be taken picture. Minho sways too much but Key is a supermodel. He does not need to move that much and as the result many of my Key's picture is HQ!! I will show you one for sure =)

to be continued..

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Who Am I ??

Who Am I?



Siapa aku?



Pertanyaan itu bener-bener mengganggu aku beberapa bulan terakhir ini. Selayaknya anak baru gede yang sedang dalam pencarian jati diri, ini aku di usia yang mendekati angka 30 mencari tahu siapa aku sebenarnya.



semenjak bergabung di kantor baru ini, aku dihadapkan dengan begitu banyak tantangan. Tantangan dalam menghadapi berbagai jenis manusia. Tantangan dalam menghadapi begitu banyak jenis pekerjaan dan situasi-situasi yang beraneka ragam. Belum lagi tantangan hubungan antar teman yang jujur terasa begitu pelik semenjak aku kembali ke Indonesia.



Siapa aku dan bagaimana aku bisa berdiri di tengah begitu banyak jenis manusia? aku terasa begitu goyah dan rapuh. Tak sadar, aku merasa lebih kuat ketika melarikan diri ke dunia per-idol-an yang semu. Tapi disitulah aku menemukan kedamaian. Kesenangan yang terpuaskan. Tapi mungkinkah aku akan terus begitu? Tentu tidak bukan?



Aku harus berdiri menghadap cermin lagi. Menanyakan pada diri sendiri, siapa aku dan siapa aku. Aku ini siapa dan aku ini apa. Pribadi macam apa aku ini? Teman macam apa aku ini? anggota keluarga macam apa aku ini? Rekan kerja macam apa aku ini?



Merenungi hal-hal ini, aku jadi berfikir. Sungguh pelik menjadi seorang manusia sosial. Begitu banyak peran-peran sosial yang harus dibentuk dan diambil. Ditata dan dipoles. Digunakan dan ditunjukkan. Sepertinya begitu rumit dan tidak pernah ada titik akhirnya. Lantas, apa aku akan bisa menjawab pertanyaan2 seperti diatas?



Apakah aku teman yang baik, bilamana ketika teman sakit aku malah tidak tahu sama sekali? Apakah aku teman yang baik kalau tidak memahami dan mengikuti apa yang teman lain rasakan? Berbaktikah aku kala hanya menuruti kata Ibu dan tidak mengikuti kata hatiku untuk mengulurkan tangan pada ayahku? apakah aku kakak yang baik kala tidak bisa berbuat banyak untuk mendorong adik sendiri untuk berdiri tegak diatas kakinya? Apakah aku atasan yang baik kala delegasi pekerjaan saja aku cenderung untuk selalu mendiskusikan dan banyak bertanya dengan anak buahku sendiri? Rekan kerja yang baikkah aku kala aku bahkan tidak ambil pusing untuk mengenal mereka lebih jauh?



Pertanyaan-pertanyaan seperti ini menghantui aku. Mengetuk pintu hati yang paling dalam namun terlampau jauh. Menggoreskan luka di jiwa yang sebenarnya rapuh dan gundah. Apa ada gunanya aku bertanya sedemikian rupa?



Haruskah kutanya pada hatiku? Hatiku sendiri sepertinya membeku, bisu, tidak mau menjawab.. Mungkin harus kutanya pada waktu yang selalu acuh dan berlari kencang di hadapanku. Mungkin dia bisa memberikan jawabannya..

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

when the Lounge is not so comfortable anymore..

Sometimes, our lounge is not so comfortable anymore. Too many stuff with broken sofa and messy magazines scattered all around the room. Perhaps, it is time to clean that up. How? Oprah may call it "de-cluttering". Me calls it decluttering life.. How? No idea!



Let me share my story of the so-called decluttering efforts. In attempt to bring back my sanity that is being cut by office workload, i often run to my old habit. I happily indulged myself in the Idol World. The newest line is 5 boys called SHINee. Famous for being noona's sweetheart by singing "noona nomu yeppo" in their debut, many of SHINee's songs give me a fresh air happiness and delight. Their song as well, called A-Yo, saved my life once upon a time where I had no job offer at all. The song told me to take a break if I feel tired in time of hardness and difficulties. But they remind me as well not to give up and never becomes weak. So here I am, typing this post during office break, remembering how that song saved my soul before the office break it.



And for saying thank you, I flew myself to Nanjing. Attending their concert and personally whisper to their kind soul a thank you note sincerely from my heart. And that's what I call a decluttering. Cause saying thank you to them relief me from pain and desperation. Cause flying to SHINee and Kisi is a gift to myself for being able to survive such a painful conflict and build cooperation bit by bit.



Now that it happens again, when days are shitty and boss don't smile while problems are mounting with my own incapability as a leader, what decluttering should I do? There is no way I could fly myself again to Singapore for SHINee concert. Or back to Beijing to see Kisi. Now what??



Do I feel happy after Nanjing? yes, yes, and Yes!!



But now, I feel like a million task is waiting ahead of me. A task harder than before. Like being graduated from one grade then moving up to another grade. More responsibilities in hand. What should I do?



At the moment, I have no idea.. Not even a single idea. Maybe by time, there must be a way and I'll find it out somehow

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Will he..

They say, love won't cost a thing. i guess i am not lucky. love cost me my sanity and belief. A belief that there will be love after this..

a love as great, as beautiful, as sincere..
will I ever feel that again?
will I ever meet him?

Let me be honest, my dream is to get married before 30. It is a dream, not a priority not a target. Now that the number is approaching soon, I don't know if there will be a miracle. Will I ever meet him before 30. Will he ever hold my hand and take it for the rest of his life. Does he even exist?

God, if you really have him in my life, please let be me in peaceful. Not in a restless state like this. Please.. I am begging you..

Friday, June 3, 2011

SHINee and Kisi

I want to meet Kisi

I want to come to SHINee Concert in Nanjing

I just want to meet her

but the concert is on 20 August 2011, Ramadhan
there is no way I will get any green light from my family
what should I do??

Kisi aitai..
Kisi aitai..

Friday, February 18, 2011

A note to the future: If, perhaps, life should deceive you!

I happened to bump into these words. I don't remember what is exactly that inspires me to write all those words, but this note is made to mend a heart. For it to become stronger in the future..

If, perhaps, life should deceive you,
Be not gloomy, be not riled!

To sad days be reconciled;
Days of gladness, trust me, are near you.

In the future the heart lasts,
And the present is not cheering:

All’s but a moment, all will pass;
What has passed will be endearing.

From another book I read:
Man Zhafara Shabira, Those who are patient will be lucky

And in the school of life, God's curriculum consist only three subjects: ikhtiar, ikhlas and sabar (try the best, let it be and be patient). Be not gloomy in living life. All will pass eventually and the light of dawn only come after the darkest moment in the night.

For the past few days, i am struggling in giving a new meaning to life. Maybe just because I am entitled a new age while my heart keeps saying that I remain 18 at heart. Or maybe, because the life back home is not a cinderella life that I once imagined.

Yes, life at home is like living a harsh reality. There was (or maybe IS) reversed culture shock. For a good number of months, I try my best to cope with it. Hope arise and smile blossomed. But then, reality bounced me back to the bottom. Whether it is about life, living, job or love. All bounced me back to the bottom at the same time.

Then I remember reading a book that says: Once you reached the bottom, the only thing you can do is to rise high because there is no way you can slope lower than the bottom. Just try again and be patient if you fail or has not yet reached your goal. Those who are patient will be lucky.

Hope that I can be patient and ikhlas for the future life ahead. Amin

Friday, February 11, 2011

Celengan sapiku dicuri negara

Kok bisa??

Jadi ceritanya begini.. Beberapa hari lalu, kuputuskan untuk beberes rumah. Di tengah keruwetan bersih-bersih yang diselengi dengan bersin-bersin, ditemukanlah sebuah harta karun terpendam. Apakah gerangan? sebuah celengan bentuk sapi, terbuat dari tanah liat (yang aku yakin dibeli dari sekaten entah tahun kapan) muncul elok di tengah tumpukan baju-baju lama.

Reaksi pertama? kyyyyaaaa... celengan guuuueeee... harta karun terpendam gw! kayaknya bakal kaya mendadak nih, pikirku. Dengan semangat ala demonstran mesir menurunkan Mubarak, kuangkat celengan itu dan kularikan ke kamar ibu dan ayah sambil berteriak-teriak bangga. Niatnya menunjukkan harta karun terpendam itu, dan mungkin nanti akan ada pujian dari orang tua kalo aku rajin menabung. hehehehe...

Tau kah apa reaksi ayah? Dengan santai ayah berkata. "itu celengan dari kapan, nduk?". Dengan masih bersemangat kujawab, "Dari sma ato smp kali ya.. lupa. Yang pasti banyak, berat soale! hehehehe.." Terbayang ku recehan-recehan berjumlah banyak yang bisa kubelikan bermacam-macam hal. Buku ato bulpen warna warni.. atau cap emoticon korea!

Dengan berdebar-debar (lebay!), kupecah itu celengan. Brasa kayak di pelem2 kartun, tiba2 aku terserap dalam lorong gelap setelah melihat isi celengan itu. Koin beraneka rupa dan warna berserakan disitu. ada koin warna tembaga kuning ada yang perak. Ada yang besar, juga ada yang mini. Begitu ngeliat itu, kepikiran cuma satu hal: itu koin masih laku ga ya?

Dimulailah kegiatan memilah-milah koin. Yang koin seratus besar tipis berat. Trus uang 50 en 25 receh (masih laku ini??). Ini yang tembaga putih. Cap TIDAK LAKU langsung ditulis. Barulah pecahan uang 100 yang warna kuning. Kata ayah sih masih laku, tp cuma bisa buat dikasih ke pengamen atau pengemis. haaahh??

Uang 500, yang ternyata dua jenis itu, plus uang logam seribuan dipisah lagi. uang seribuannya masih tebel berat dengan lingkar kuning di bagian luar. Kata ayah, ini bisa buat jajan, nduk. Glek! cuma ini? setelah dihitung dengan cermat dan teliti, gabungan uang 500 dan 1000 itu berjumlah 5500.

Hiks.. celengan gw nilainya cuma 5500 rupiah. Bertahun-tahun menabung dari uang saku, hasilnya cuma 5500. hooowaaa... ini kenapa bisa begini???

Bukannya mencari kambing hitam, ini memang harus dicari sumber persoalannya. Dan ternyata, sumbernya adalah kegemaran pemerintah negara Indonesia tercinta ini untuk menciptakan dan mengedarkan uang baru. Entah tiap berapa tahun sekali, pemerintah mengedarkan uang baru. Uang yang lama entah masih berlaku atau enggak. Semua campur aduk ga jelas. Uang lama dan baru berputar kayak gangsing. Apa ya tujuannya pemerintah menciptakan uang baru tiap saat? biar percetakan uang negara ada proyek ya?

Bukannya mau membandingkan, tapi perasaan dollar AS dari dulu begitu deh rupa dan wujudnya. Uang yen Jepang dan won Korea juga begitu. Ga berubah barang sedikitpun. Pernah sih nerima uang yen lama, dibilangnya masih laku tapi sayang karena itu udah ga beredar.

Aku sadar betul pemerintah paling hobi ganti kebijakan. Ganti pejabat, ganti pemerintahan. Nama SMU berubah jadi SMAN trus berubah balik ke SMU lagi dalam jangka waktu kurang dari 10 tahun. Tapi apa coba tujuannya?? Ga ada manfaatnya kalo cuma perubahan simbol semata. Persoalan mata uang juga sama. Apa sih fungsi dan gunanya merubah-rubah bentuk mata uang sesering kita ganti baju? Bukannya itu justru meresahkan masyarakat ya? Apa gara2 itu juga nilai rupiah kita ga pernah bagus lagi di mata dunia?

Ayuk, cukup dong perubahan ga signifikan ini. Kami merindukan sebuah ketenangan dalam bentuk kesinambungan kebijakan dan bentuk mata uang. Biar tabungan dan pikiran kami tidak terkuras untuk memikirkan polah pemerintah yang lama kelamaan makin tidak masuk akal.

Pemerintah, ga mau kan kalau ada anak kecil nangis di depan istana negara trus bilang"celengan sapiku dicuri pak presiden", sambil guling2? Saya akan ikutan guling2 karena saya juga korbannya.

Celengan sapiku dicuri negara, ibu.. Kemana lagi harus kucari??