Freedom and Commitment

Quoting Quelho, "freedom is not in the absence of commitment, but the ability to choose and commit my self to - what is best for me"

For the past couple of months, I have been in continuous search of jobs that I want to do. I'll say it again, looking for jobs.

Jobs, what does that word mean to you? Is it about doing a work and get paid? Or doing things you like but still you are chasing for the money? Or doing what you like and do best at.

In my case, I look for a job within the UN system or international organizations. I want to do another thing other than researching with local NGOs. I want to do something more, something big. And since interning with the UN, working with this body seems to make more sense than anything I ever wanted in life. Only to find myself loosing in the way to get there.

I landed a job back from the old office. I should be thankful for having a job, in a place I used to belong and in a field that I have been for the past few years. Yet, I feel a storm of boredom and a bigger wish to escape the likely routed way. Do I really hate doing research? Do I really want to have that UN jobs that I despise the work I should be thankful?

Guess, I have to resort to say that I will work my ass off so one day I can work for the UN