the meeting

another man, another story. and I am tired already...

so yesterday, I was working voluntarily for a project for less-fortunate children. There I met this very interesting person. Since the very beginning, I felt like I catched his attention. So did the second day of our meeting. He was in my group and we talked alot during our way home. What an interesting person. One man who is ambitious enough to let go stable job to start his own business

There is one sentence that strike me the most. He said, "in life, there is either 0% or 100%. Either you don't do it at all or you do it wholeheartedly". I reminded me of someone I miss the most. Someone who knows where to go in life. We talked about our job, how we felt the same under appreciation from people just because we become successful at our young age. I truly admire him, despite the fact that he felt under pressure for mentioning his educational background. To be honest, being a graduate from the same faculty and same university, I know exactly how the system works. I know his educational background and for sure I know he is much younger than me. But still, I admire him for being so brave to choose his own way of life. Out of comfort zone. Something that I am afraid of. Now, that I start to find the rhythm with the office, I am afraid of losing my post with the office.

Tough, I still have a dream that one day I will be in Japan again. Now with much consideration whether I will be there alone or with someone that I will grow old with.

If I ever have a sentence to describe how I feel: I feel like I am seeing the light at the end of very long tunnel. Yet, I could not yet comprehend on light. Whether it comes from the lone sunlight or a train that pass by to take me away with it. To another life in different places.

when will I get the answer? only God knows.. and only God knows what meaning lies behind the meeting with this man

Only you..

Hei baby..

I post a picture on my facebook page
and for the first time after long
so many push the like button there
I tell you, many!

But..
there is only one name I've been searching for
in between those names
it is your name

But
Your name is never there
never
When all I want to see is any name but you

watashi no tanjoubi no hi.. ano toki..

ano toki..

i still remember it very clearly..
it was a night time in February.. cold and cold..
but it was so warm for me as you walk your bike by my side
and we talk about our dream, our future

I asked you, what do you want to do.
and you said, i had a job.. at a company
you know it well, don't you? he said
and I said, yes..

then you asked me, what i want to do in my life
and i said, i guess i always want to be a diplomat
working in faraway land
talking in a foreign languange

maybe it could be United Nations, I said
and you replied, I used to have the same wish as yours
it surprised me, and i foolishly asked why you decided to forget it
and you said that you want a steady life and job

a steady life and job is what you want in your future
five years from now, you said
if i have a courage to continue, I will resign and look for my UN post
only if..

my love..
i keep my promise.. i keep my dream
i continue on becoming a UN staff
achieving my dream

my love..
how about you?
are you happy with your job?
will you keep your dream of working in the UN like I do?

i keep the dream as I keep my memory of you
a memory that hold me to life
a memory that bring me courage in bad days
to hold on and to wait

to wait for the day, i can see you again
tough i am afraid i might be waiting in vain
but i keep on waiting
my foots are moving but my hearts decides to stay

to stay where it always belong to
it always belong to you
to our conversation
to our dream

till the night we walk our bike again
crossing the dark road of cold Kyoto again
till I see the light in your eyes again
I will be waiting...

watashi no tanjoubi no hi.. ano toki..

ano toki..

i still remember it very clearly..
it was a night time in February.. cold and cold..
but it was so warm for me as you walk your bike by my side
and we talk about our dream, our future

I asked you, what do you want to do.
and you said, i had a job.. at a company
you know it well, don't you? he said
and I said, yes..

then you asked me, what i want to do in my life
and i said, i guess i always want to be a diplomat
working in faraway land
talking in a foreign languange

maybe it could be United Nations, I said
and you replied, I used to have the same wish as yours
it surprised me, and i foolishly asked why you decided to forget it
and you said that you want a steady life and job

a steady life and job is what you want in your future
five years from now, you said
if i have a courage to continue, I will resign and look for my UN post
only if..

my love..
i keep my promise.. i keep my dream
i continue on becoming a UN staff
achieving my dream

my love..
how about you?
are you happy with your job?
will you keep your dream of working in the UN like I do?

i keep the dream as I keep my memory of you
a memory that hold me to life
a memory that bring me courage in bad days
to hold on and to wait

to wait for the day, i can see you again
tough i am afraid i might be waiting in vain
but i keep on waiting
my foots are moving but my hearts decides to stay

to stay where it always belong to
it always belong to you
to our conversation
to our dream

till the night we walk our bike again
crossing the dark road of cold Kyoto again
till I see the light in your eyes again
I will be waiting...