Welcome to SHINee World Concert Nanjing (part 5)

ROCK IT, BOYS!!!

The next part of the concert is definitely far from ballad and mellow. Call "Ring Ding Dong" and you shake most of the world into rhythm! Yoo Geeunnnaaaaa... That's the only name I want to scream. WHY? Anyone remember Hello Baby?? YooGeun is the only official SHINee's sixth member after mastering Ring Ding Dong under mischievous SHINee appa's guidence for 3 months. Oooohh... how much I want Yoo Geun to be there and dance RDD with appas..




Rock your body with "up and down" and "ready or not" as the boys running cheerfully toward the crowd! I found this moment to be so much fun seeing the boys happily running into the center stage. And my camera, as crazy as i don't look while shooting capture just the beauty of their smile! yaaayyy








and the crowds were screaming like crrraaazzzzyyyyy when Jjong sit on the stage and Taemin running from behind hugging the hyung! literally craaazzzeeeeyyyy...




meanwhile, someone was literally tired. This is only year 2011, leader Onew!! wakakakaka....




and the boys were hyper and over the top during "ready or not". for me, this is the first time i have to hold myself not to turn myself like crazy just as the boys did it in front of me. someone might kill me if i do! hahahaahah... and trust me, not picture is taken. I was to busy laughing seeing how hyper minho could be with jjong. JongHo are hyppppeeeerr!!!

Next to make the crowds get crazier is LUCIFER! Welcome to the laser show and i have to admit, it was one good laser show!!! all the boys were lifted to the air with their arms equipped with wolverine-kind-of-hand that projects laser..












suddenly: THANK YOU appears on the screen and we all scream like craaazzeeee... Bring back our SHINee!!!!

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Welcome to SHINee World Concert Nanjing (part 4)

and so, the serene songs continues.. (tough you cannot categorize Love Like Oxygen as sad ;p)

VCR came in.. setting a new mode of broken heart as the next song is none other than Quasimodo and Life. Despite all the sadness hanging because of the two songs, i have to admit i was literally dies during this two songs. The boys look extremely good looking in their white suit. me being Minho bias, couldn't help but look at him all the time. But I have to admit, Key once again give me the most picturesque look. He draws everyone seeing him at the time into his eyes, which tells you that love brings only sadness and no other than that..











The serene surrounding is what come next with me only able to open my mouth in disbelief. Here we are, standing in somewhat an opera concert with Onew coming for his solo. Singing Nessun Dorma, he literally mesmerized all of us with a vocal of an opera singer. I can only open my mouth while he reached all those high notes. No picture was taken and Hail to Leader Onew!!


Hail to the boys again for coming as an angel! Right there, in front of me, Minho came slowly to the stage from below the stage as an angel. Luckily, i know very well Minho will come from there, so I barely breath during his appearance. Kissssiiii.. You bought me the nicest spot in the concert!!








Angel song, came from a traditional Korean children song, was sang beautifully by the boys. Everytime I remember the concert, Angel is always the first song to come to mind. So beautiful it is, I sang it over and over again with the boys.. with Leader Onew came last as a divine angel hugging a little boy. With the way the perform it, SHINee made sure that none of us will forget that performance in years to come..






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Welcome to SHINee World Concert Nanjing (part 3)

Fun continueeeeessssss

After A-Yo, which means I am still in the land of dream and disbelief, the boys (blurry in my mind) continues with "Romantic" and "Obsession". I only remembered a fraction of this performance thanks to the hype of A-Yo. The boys changed into caramel-white outfit and sang the song at the main stage. The melody of romantic truly made you feel like in a mellow country.. ooohh.. so serene..




my senses snap back only when the boys took the rolling stage into center stage while "Obsession". The song was so sad I can see Key almost shed his tears while singing it. And as I promised you before, this is where Diva Key approached our stage and gave us the best photo shooting session ever.






and Minho gave me that sad look as well, under the red light during Obsession..




One of my fave parts of the concert came next when the boys sang Graze. Graze is a sad love song. Truly sad.. and with this song I connect myself. My love and the love of my life. The one I love with such sincerity that I never known before. Too sad, as the boys also said it, I was never been more than comfortable friend from the beginning. And during Life, my tears drop as a farewell for another million time. Wishing that the love should fade as soon as the new song begin..




The next part is Replay.. Being so mellow during Graze, I barely recover during Replay. Although there is VCR before hand. Waiting for the boys to change the subtle outfit into colorful one. Romeo version it is!! Shiny colorful jeans.. here I commmeeee....



then there was "love like oxygen". In contrary with Graze, I hate love like oxygen. Love never been an oxygen since 3 years ago. Its more Carbon dioxide for me. frustrating and relenting.. So I stand still during the song only to question when will be the time love become an oxygen instead the contrary..




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Welcome to SHINee World Concert Nanjing (part 2)

Okay.. Let's continue the fun! hahahahaa...

At the second part of the show - that's how I call it - all members took up the stage individually to perform their solo. Taemin came up first with Taemin's version of Romeo. And this is fuuunn.. I love Taem's clear and bright voice. A little kiddy voice. But whoever the coordinoona or costume designer should go to hell! i hate Taemin's outfit to the max!! to the maaaaaxxxxx!!! he looks soo freaking skinny!




Next to heat the stage is JongHyun. Tough I expect him to DJ-ing like in Seoul concert, he choose to sing duet with Zhang Liyin. Not bad but i barely enjoy the duet. They both have high pitch and it is so no no during the refrain. bye byeee.. and JongHyun, being JongHyun, stand at the far corner from my stage. Much to my dismay cause I need his pictures for Tia




and the HOT HOT HOT comes next! Baby Minho is smooching all the fans with solo dance performance of Oh My Gosh! no further comments.. *dies already*




still numb from previous performance, I senses were fired back to life after set eyes on pinky Taemin! he looks... drag! hahaahahahaha.. Key's solo performance featuring Taemin brings alot more laughter the crowd as they were pretending to be a couple. Those little kids made me laaaauuuggghhh!! hahahaahahahaha.. but i have to admit, Taemin looks reaaalllyy pretty!






As I am expecting Onew's solo come afterward, "A-Yo" become a huge huge surprise!! Not only this is my favorite song, this is so far SHINee's most loveliest song. I loooveee every bits of A-Yo. And their performance in Nanjing certainly bring me to tears. I didn't give a shit taking picture of them. Just me follow the bits and dance. I finally can wave that hands up in the air and looooveeee... Thank you boys.. You made me happy for once again. Thank you... Thank you... You never know just how much that song help me in the darkest point of my life. Thank you SHInee.. Thank you...

Welcome to SHINee World Concert Nanjing (part1)

I know it's been a month since I celebrated the joy of SHINee World Concert in Nanjing. But the cheers, the fan chant, the joy last for long. Till date, I can still imagined how close my hand to Minho and Taemin. Seeing Minho appears before my own eyes as an angel is an amazing experience. But what most important is that attending SHINee World Concert is one of my dreams. And coming to SHINee's concert in Nanjing is a dream coming true.

I took flight to Nanjing as early as 13 August 2011. No direct flight from Indonesia to Nanjing. So I took one via HongKong. 12 hours is what I took to be in Nanjing. And at the gate of the old city, stand my very own best friend Kisi who flew from Beijing to be with me during my stay in Nanjing. It is another dream coming true. After 11 months of separation, I once again able to stand side by side with my best friend. I miss her so much and coming to Nanjing is the only way to be with her again.

Kisi knows exactly how I have been crazy about SHINee for the past year. She voluntarily bought me the concert ticket, the one closet to the stage. So much that she loves me (hahahaha..).. her choice of sea is perfect! Located on the terrace 17, on the right wing, is the stage where Minho appeared the most. He loves to stay in that part, by the way. hahahahaha...

The concert started 10 minutes late. No wonder all fans were feeling nervous. We continuously chanting "SHINee...SHINee..SHINee"... and some of us yelling "we want SHINeeeeee..." Exactly at 19.40 Nanjing time, the boys hit the stage with "SHINee World". I lost my mind at the time.. so don't ask me how it goes. They appeared from the main stage and look as small as it could be. Followed by "Senorita" and "Get Down"! I personally looooveeee Senorita. They put a hype on it and rock the concert.












kkkaaaayyyyyyyaaaa..... Minho for the first time come to my side of stage. Sooooo happy! my gosh, he looks gorgeous! *fangirlingmodeon* Get it down, Minho!!








The boys didn't seems to be tired so they decided to continue with A.MI.GO. And this is the first time they lift themself up in the air! JongHyun was on my side of stage but not that long.




There we have "Juliette" and "Hello" after that. Both were sang in its original Korean version despite of many hoping that they will sing the two songs in Japanese version. Considering both were recently released in Japan. Anywaaaaayyy... I don't mind having them in Korean at all.




Shinee's Hello is always my personal favorite =) While singing Hello, they sit down in some kind of white chair on the main stage. I didn't pay attention to the screen behind them because it only reflects their movement in shadow mode. But heelllooo..the second part is cool. The shadow was replaced by their image but not in real life. Still, when each members sing their part, lots of screams and chants coming from the crowd. Of course, i scream the loudest each time Minho sang but as he sang not that much, I saved my voice for the latter part of the show. wekekekeke...

After that, the boys take the break and brought about the ability to speak Chinese. Not that I admire their talent, but the word they said the loudest is "Binnaneun SHINee imnida" which of course their trade mark. And some chinese like Ni Hao! hahahaha...





The interview was short and not really impressive. The impressive show comes next. They were back in their previous Hello Positon and start singing "Your Name". I didn't recall this song being presented during SWC Tokyo but anyway, i like the setting. Angel setting for the first time. I tought that Angel song is the only one the use the angel-theme background, but i guess i was wrong. hahahahaha... and Minho like sing too! a line or so! waaaakakakaka...

"Stand by Me" comes next. Korean version like what we all expected, tough Japanese version once again could serve better! me and my Japan bias. hehehehehe... and look who's coming to my stage. Diva KEY! my God, I swear that he is the easiest to be taken picture. Minho sways too much but Key is a supermodel. He does not need to move that much and as the result many of my Key's picture is HQ!! I will show you one for sure =)

to be continued..

Who Am I ??

Who Am I?



Siapa aku?



Pertanyaan itu bener-bener mengganggu aku beberapa bulan terakhir ini. Selayaknya anak baru gede yang sedang dalam pencarian jati diri, ini aku di usia yang mendekati angka 30 mencari tahu siapa aku sebenarnya.



semenjak bergabung di kantor baru ini, aku dihadapkan dengan begitu banyak tantangan. Tantangan dalam menghadapi berbagai jenis manusia. Tantangan dalam menghadapi begitu banyak jenis pekerjaan dan situasi-situasi yang beraneka ragam. Belum lagi tantangan hubungan antar teman yang jujur terasa begitu pelik semenjak aku kembali ke Indonesia.



Siapa aku dan bagaimana aku bisa berdiri di tengah begitu banyak jenis manusia? aku terasa begitu goyah dan rapuh. Tak sadar, aku merasa lebih kuat ketika melarikan diri ke dunia per-idol-an yang semu. Tapi disitulah aku menemukan kedamaian. Kesenangan yang terpuaskan. Tapi mungkinkah aku akan terus begitu? Tentu tidak bukan?



Aku harus berdiri menghadap cermin lagi. Menanyakan pada diri sendiri, siapa aku dan siapa aku. Aku ini siapa dan aku ini apa. Pribadi macam apa aku ini? Teman macam apa aku ini? anggota keluarga macam apa aku ini? Rekan kerja macam apa aku ini?



Merenungi hal-hal ini, aku jadi berfikir. Sungguh pelik menjadi seorang manusia sosial. Begitu banyak peran-peran sosial yang harus dibentuk dan diambil. Ditata dan dipoles. Digunakan dan ditunjukkan. Sepertinya begitu rumit dan tidak pernah ada titik akhirnya. Lantas, apa aku akan bisa menjawab pertanyaan2 seperti diatas?



Apakah aku teman yang baik, bilamana ketika teman sakit aku malah tidak tahu sama sekali? Apakah aku teman yang baik kalau tidak memahami dan mengikuti apa yang teman lain rasakan? Berbaktikah aku kala hanya menuruti kata Ibu dan tidak mengikuti kata hatiku untuk mengulurkan tangan pada ayahku? apakah aku kakak yang baik kala tidak bisa berbuat banyak untuk mendorong adik sendiri untuk berdiri tegak diatas kakinya? Apakah aku atasan yang baik kala delegasi pekerjaan saja aku cenderung untuk selalu mendiskusikan dan banyak bertanya dengan anak buahku sendiri? Rekan kerja yang baikkah aku kala aku bahkan tidak ambil pusing untuk mengenal mereka lebih jauh?



Pertanyaan-pertanyaan seperti ini menghantui aku. Mengetuk pintu hati yang paling dalam namun terlampau jauh. Menggoreskan luka di jiwa yang sebenarnya rapuh dan gundah. Apa ada gunanya aku bertanya sedemikian rupa?



Haruskah kutanya pada hatiku? Hatiku sendiri sepertinya membeku, bisu, tidak mau menjawab.. Mungkin harus kutanya pada waktu yang selalu acuh dan berlari kencang di hadapanku. Mungkin dia bisa memberikan jawabannya..

when the Lounge is not so comfortable anymore..

Sometimes, our lounge is not so comfortable anymore. Too many stuff with broken sofa and messy magazines scattered all around the room. Perhaps, it is time to clean that up. How? Oprah may call it "de-cluttering". Me calls it decluttering life.. How? No idea!



Let me share my story of the so-called decluttering efforts. In attempt to bring back my sanity that is being cut by office workload, i often run to my old habit. I happily indulged myself in the Idol World. The newest line is 5 boys called SHINee. Famous for being noona's sweetheart by singing "noona nomu yeppo" in their debut, many of SHINee's songs give me a fresh air happiness and delight. Their song as well, called A-Yo, saved my life once upon a time where I had no job offer at all. The song told me to take a break if I feel tired in time of hardness and difficulties. But they remind me as well not to give up and never becomes weak. So here I am, typing this post during office break, remembering how that song saved my soul before the office break it.



And for saying thank you, I flew myself to Nanjing. Attending their concert and personally whisper to their kind soul a thank you note sincerely from my heart. And that's what I call a decluttering. Cause saying thank you to them relief me from pain and desperation. Cause flying to SHINee and Kisi is a gift to myself for being able to survive such a painful conflict and build cooperation bit by bit.



Now that it happens again, when days are shitty and boss don't smile while problems are mounting with my own incapability as a leader, what decluttering should I do? There is no way I could fly myself again to Singapore for SHINee concert. Or back to Beijing to see Kisi. Now what??



Do I feel happy after Nanjing? yes, yes, and Yes!!



But now, I feel like a million task is waiting ahead of me. A task harder than before. Like being graduated from one grade then moving up to another grade. More responsibilities in hand. What should I do?



At the moment, I have no idea.. Not even a single idea. Maybe by time, there must be a way and I'll find it out somehow

Will he..

They say, love won't cost a thing. i guess i am not lucky. love cost me my sanity and belief. A belief that there will be love after this..

a love as great, as beautiful, as sincere..
will I ever feel that again?
will I ever meet him?

Let me be honest, my dream is to get married before 30. It is a dream, not a priority not a target. Now that the number is approaching soon, I don't know if there will be a miracle. Will I ever meet him before 30. Will he ever hold my hand and take it for the rest of his life. Does he even exist?

God, if you really have him in my life, please let be me in peaceful. Not in a restless state like this. Please.. I am begging you..