Daku tu orang paling enggak teliti se-dunia. Pa lagi sama yang namanya angka. Tapi kebetulan banget ya..pas tadi ngutak atik alias mensederhanakan laporan pertanggungjawaban kabupaten gianyar buat dimasukkan dalam penelitian, ternyata daku menemukan kejanggalan angka. Dari dua perhitungan mengenai belanja pegawai, hasilnya jauh beda. Apa ini terjadi di semua LKPJ daerah?
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
never hurts like this
"do you know how much its hurts to like and not be liked in return?"
"do you know how much its hurts to like someone, but yet he likes your friend?"
"and do you know how much it hurts to know the fact that the one you like laugh at other's miserable fate of broken heart?"
It means double pain, triple hurts, and millions of failing faith.
He, the one I really like after all this time, laugh at an attempt made by a good friend in expressing his love. His attempts might be unprofessional, rookie style you may call it. But yet, it is an expression of love. No matter what. Really..this attempt doesn't hurt anybody.
For God's sake...its a flattery if you want to call it. Yet, you laugh about it, make fun of that one friend, and thinking of teaching him something. Oh gosh...he would be better off without any of your ridiculous teaching. Coz I know, no matter what he will do, you will laugh at him on his back along with the one he has trusted all his stories.
You and your friend might never understand what's the meaning of not being loved in return. I know that you have all the priviledges a man can has. Knock it off..get yourself involve with any girl you like. Coz Im leaving you.
Coz this is the answer to my prayer. My heart might be broken inside, but God has shown me who you trully are. The true face of yours... God has saved my soul from hoping that you might be the one I'm looking for all this years. God has saved my mind from thingking of you any longer..God has saved my life..
And I hope God will save your life too..
"do you know how much its hurts to like someone, but yet he likes your friend?"
"and do you know how much it hurts to know the fact that the one you like laugh at other's miserable fate of broken heart?"
It means double pain, triple hurts, and millions of failing faith.
He, the one I really like after all this time, laugh at an attempt made by a good friend in expressing his love. His attempts might be unprofessional, rookie style you may call it. But yet, it is an expression of love. No matter what. Really..this attempt doesn't hurt anybody.
For God's sake...its a flattery if you want to call it. Yet, you laugh about it, make fun of that one friend, and thinking of teaching him something. Oh gosh...he would be better off without any of your ridiculous teaching. Coz I know, no matter what he will do, you will laugh at him on his back along with the one he has trusted all his stories.
You and your friend might never understand what's the meaning of not being loved in return. I know that you have all the priviledges a man can has. Knock it off..get yourself involve with any girl you like. Coz Im leaving you.
Coz this is the answer to my prayer. My heart might be broken inside, but God has shown me who you trully are. The true face of yours... God has saved my soul from hoping that you might be the one I'm looking for all this years. God has saved my mind from thingking of you any longer..God has saved my life..
And I hope God will save your life too..
Thursday, July 17, 2008
friend and foe
This afternoon, I finished my series of interview pretty quick. Gw berangkat jam 9 dan kelar jam 3an. Cukup efektif untuk wawancara 4 orang dalam satu hari. Well, if you think I will have some rests afterwards, you are completely wrong! Gw ma Lia akhirnya ke sebuah cafe yang ada inetnya. Boro2 enjoying the view, gw malah ngerjain index sialan itu.
aside from that, salah satu temen ym gw. awalnya sih kita cuma ngomongin hal biasa aja. seperti ngaben di bali kemarin. habis itu, kita akhirnya ngomongin hal yang mengganggu banget. masalah kerjaan kantor, as usual. Gw ga bisa cerita tp hal itu bikin gw piss off banget. ga sopppaaaann... gw marah en get really carried away. i can understand his feeling. I would be really pissed if it happen to me. Amazingly, he doesn't feel like angry. he just turning into black mood, yet keep doing it in such a short time. I learn from you, mate.. and be strong. Im right behind you
after that, i called another friend. Just because I called him before for another reason. And that call made me realize, calling him is not a good idea. Today and days after. I hate him!!
Now i know..who is the one i can talk to. To share stories, ideas and troubles..doesn't we all learn from experience like this?
Monday, July 7, 2008
mistake, love and regret
deeegg!!!
mati gw!!!
itulah rasanya pas tadi bu Wieq nelpun. Aku melakukan kesalahan super fatal dengan lupa mengirimkan undangan untuk salah satu narasumber. makin panjanglah semua kesalahan gw..setelah tadi siang gw dianggap enggak becus coz bikin power point aja ga bisa. padahal tu power point cuma ditulis sehari. Ya udahlah...terima aja. Gw emang salah.
Nah, kesalahan tidak mengirimkan itu emang fatal. Kilta lihat apa yang bikin gw begitu. pertama, gw selalu aja menunda hal. kedua, jarang banget mengkonfirmasi padahal kerjaan gw selalu deket2 telpun. ketiga, sangat super teledor dan pelupa. keempat, ketidakmampuanku untuk membaca situasi dan kondisi plus analisa psikologi orang. udah tahu bu wik ga mungkin ngirimin undangan sendirian, masih aja itu gw lakukan. bodoh!
hasilnya??? ya begini ini. ga jelas..kebodohan dan ketotolan besar. sepertinya, aku ga pernah belajar dari masa lalu ya??
Bu wik bilang ini karena gw lagi in love. Yeaahh right! im in love??
but somehow..deep down in my heart, i realize that it probably true. it probably are...
do i really in love with him? to the one who open the door after a long time..the one whose smile melten my world? the one that i miss so much during weekend? someone who i can share nice laugh with? someone to whom i can talk? is he really the one?
but why it came so late???
its terribly late to fall for someone..someone like him
i better concentrate to make my life a bit smoother. This case is just the worse that could happen during my life in the office. the worst...
mati gw!!!
itulah rasanya pas tadi bu Wieq nelpun. Aku melakukan kesalahan super fatal dengan lupa mengirimkan undangan untuk salah satu narasumber. makin panjanglah semua kesalahan gw..setelah tadi siang gw dianggap enggak becus coz bikin power point aja ga bisa. padahal tu power point cuma ditulis sehari. Ya udahlah...terima aja. Gw emang salah.
Nah, kesalahan tidak mengirimkan itu emang fatal. Kilta lihat apa yang bikin gw begitu. pertama, gw selalu aja menunda hal. kedua, jarang banget mengkonfirmasi padahal kerjaan gw selalu deket2 telpun. ketiga, sangat super teledor dan pelupa. keempat, ketidakmampuanku untuk membaca situasi dan kondisi plus analisa psikologi orang. udah tahu bu wik ga mungkin ngirimin undangan sendirian, masih aja itu gw lakukan. bodoh!
hasilnya??? ya begini ini. ga jelas..kebodohan dan ketotolan besar. sepertinya, aku ga pernah belajar dari masa lalu ya??
Bu wik bilang ini karena gw lagi in love. Yeaahh right! im in love??
but somehow..deep down in my heart, i realize that it probably true. it probably are...
do i really in love with him? to the one who open the door after a long time..the one whose smile melten my world? the one that i miss so much during weekend? someone who i can share nice laugh with? someone to whom i can talk? is he really the one?
but why it came so late???
its terribly late to fall for someone..someone like him
i better concentrate to make my life a bit smoother. This case is just the worse that could happen during my life in the office. the worst...
Friday, June 6, 2008
anak lautan + anak lautan = banjir
Kemarin, tepat hari kamis 6 Juni 2008, anak-anak lautan tanpa kostum ijo ketemuan di salah satu sudut resto jepang di pelangi. ada gw, tantan, kapcil, shooter, puss, vegs, kumkum, saphire, pipers, ma hyuga. Oh ya..plus om HOT, tapi dianya pulang duluan .
Nah...tujuan dari ketemuan itu sebenernya buat ngomongin acara gath di anyer. Keluarlah itu semua ide gila buat games en acara senggang disana. Tapi sodara sodara..yang paling ribet ternyata nentuin makanan. macem2 dah yang muncul..untunglah akhirnya nemu juga yang semua setuju.
wuuuaahhh...kalo inget bentuk acara en makanannya, jadi pengen cepet2 gath deh. Dijamin assyyeekkk...
anyway...the best was yet to come after the meeting. Gw bareng kumkum, saphire ma pips pulang duluan karena gw sendiri takut musti loncat pager kos. makluumm...tu pager tinggi berat dan gw ari itu pake high heels. lompat pager is so NO NO!
Tapi apa dayaaa....ternyata ujan dereeess banget. ga bisa pulang deh gw. Secara ga bawa payung juga. Akhirnya gw balik ke dalem lagi. Siapa nyana kalo gw ketemu kapcil, tantan en puss. Akhirnya kita nunggu taksi bareng. Nah ini dia yang bikin sebel. Semua taksi di waktu ujan ternyata belagunya ga ketulungan.
Akhirnya kita mutusin untuk cari taksi aja di depan atmajaya. Oh Tuhan..ini dia tantangannya. Pas masuk jalan depan atma, itu dah berasa kaya laut beneran. Banjir menggenang sampe trotoar. Nah..tiap kali tu mobil lewat, langsung ada ombak besar. Celana digulung dan sepatu dikorbankan. Cuma Tantan yang selamat. kenape? dia langsung manjet tembok begitu ombak datang! hahhahahahaha...nice try, tan..coba ya gw bisa kaya lo. selop gw pasti selamet. hihihihihii...
Pas kita akhirnya nyampe halte, gw langsung bilang ke tantan. Kok gw kayanya dejavu ya...dulu pas mau nonton Joe Cheng juga begitu. Sekarang mau gath di anyer juga begitu. Jangan-jangan...inilah hasil kebanyakan anak lautan ngumpul. anak lautan + kaos maen aer + anak lautan lagi + rencana maen aer di anyer = banjir! emang ga jaoooohhh....
wuuuakakaa
Nah...tujuan dari ketemuan itu sebenernya buat ngomongin acara gath di anyer. Keluarlah itu semua ide gila buat games en acara senggang disana. Tapi sodara sodara..yang paling ribet ternyata nentuin makanan. macem2 dah yang muncul..untunglah akhirnya nemu juga yang semua setuju.
wuuuaahhh...kalo inget bentuk acara en makanannya, jadi pengen cepet2 gath deh. Dijamin assyyeekkk...
anyway...the best was yet to come after the meeting. Gw bareng kumkum, saphire ma pips pulang duluan karena gw sendiri takut musti loncat pager kos. makluumm...tu pager tinggi berat dan gw ari itu pake high heels. lompat pager is so NO NO!
Tapi apa dayaaa....ternyata ujan dereeess banget. ga bisa pulang deh gw. Secara ga bawa payung juga. Akhirnya gw balik ke dalem lagi. Siapa nyana kalo gw ketemu kapcil, tantan en puss. Akhirnya kita nunggu taksi bareng. Nah ini dia yang bikin sebel. Semua taksi di waktu ujan ternyata belagunya ga ketulungan.
Akhirnya kita mutusin untuk cari taksi aja di depan atmajaya. Oh Tuhan..ini dia tantangannya. Pas masuk jalan depan atma, itu dah berasa kaya laut beneran. Banjir menggenang sampe trotoar. Nah..tiap kali tu mobil lewat, langsung ada ombak besar. Celana digulung dan sepatu dikorbankan. Cuma Tantan yang selamat. kenape? dia langsung manjet tembok begitu ombak datang! hahhahahahaha...nice try, tan..coba ya gw bisa kaya lo. selop gw pasti selamet. hihihihihii...
Pas kita akhirnya nyampe halte, gw langsung bilang ke tantan. Kok gw kayanya dejavu ya...dulu pas mau nonton Joe Cheng juga begitu. Sekarang mau gath di anyer juga begitu. Jangan-jangan...inilah hasil kebanyakan anak lautan ngumpul. anak lautan + kaos maen aer + anak lautan lagi + rencana maen aer di anyer = banjir! emang ga jaoooohhh....
wuuuakakaa
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Journey and Destiny
A very good friend of mine just sent me this poet not long ago
when I read this..I really cannot hold my tears
this poems is....
ironically explain what i have been feeling for all this years
here we go the poem
What is the most precious yet all-pervading?
What is the most selfish yet giving?
What is the most intoxicating yet humbling?
What is it that we all are searching?
To think that it is never impossible
To think that it endures
To constantly seek the love of someone
To be acquainted with, to be captivated
To venture, to enter
To persevere, to hope
My other half is a destiny
The reunion is a journey
My foresight is not the paramount
The courage is the jewel of the crown
Where do I go from here..?
p.s.
my dearest susan,
where do we go from here?
what will we do from now?
and what pray we will have from this day on?
shall we go on with this journey?
when I read this..I really cannot hold my tears
this poems is....
ironically explain what i have been feeling for all this years
here we go the poem
What is the most precious yet all-pervading?
What is the most selfish yet giving?
What is the most intoxicating yet humbling?
What is it that we all are searching?
To think that it is never impossible
To think that it endures
To constantly seek the love of someone
To be acquainted with, to be captivated
To venture, to enter
To persevere, to hope
My other half is a destiny
The reunion is a journey
My foresight is not the paramount
The courage is the jewel of the crown
Where do I go from here..?
p.s.
my dearest susan,
where do we go from here?
what will we do from now?
and what pray we will have from this day on?
shall we go on with this journey?
Journey and Destiny
A very good friend of mine just sent me this poet not long ago
when I read this..I really cannot hold my tears
this poems is....
ironically explain what i have been feeling for all this years
here we go the poem
What is the most precious yet all-pervading?
What is the most selfish yet giving?
What is the most intoxicating yet humbling?
What is it that we all are searching?
To think that it is never impossible
To think that it endures
To constantly seek the love of someone
To be acquainted with, to be captivated
To venture, to enter
To persevere, to hope
My other half is a destiny
The reunion is a journey
My foresight is not the paramount
The courage is the jewel of the crown
Where do I go from here..?
p.s.
my dearest susan,
where do we go from here?
what will we do from now?
and what pray we will have from this day on?
shall we go on with this journey?
when I read this..I really cannot hold my tears
this poems is....
ironically explain what i have been feeling for all this years
here we go the poem
What is the most precious yet all-pervading?
What is the most selfish yet giving?
What is the most intoxicating yet humbling?
What is it that we all are searching?
To think that it is never impossible
To think that it endures
To constantly seek the love of someone
To be acquainted with, to be captivated
To venture, to enter
To persevere, to hope
My other half is a destiny
The reunion is a journey
My foresight is not the paramount
The courage is the jewel of the crown
Where do I go from here..?
p.s.
my dearest susan,
where do we go from here?
what will we do from now?
and what pray we will have from this day on?
shall we go on with this journey?
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Once we fly so high...
I just finished watched one of my fave TV serials named "They Kiss Again". Referring to its tittle, believe me people..its not a X-rated serials!
It simply a family drama about the early journey of newlyweds, Jiang Zhi Shu and wifey Yuan Xiang Qin. They know each other for 5 years before finally getting married. Zhi Shu is one cold-cool genius guy while Xiang Qin is exactly the opposite. For five years, Xiang Qin tried to win this one person although world-space gap between them. As all fairy tale end, Xiang Qin finally get the love of his life and seems to live happily ever after.
But then...we were shown in this drama that their love story is not a fairy tale. It is a real life with sad, happy, heartbreaking, painful, dissapointed moments. It really touching and heartbreaking. Yet..some of its part really encouraging. Really encouraging.
The first part that touched me is when Zhi Shu asked Xiang Qin during their flight over Guam with private small cassa-plane to stay forward. He said "Only when we fly that high, do we realise how big this world really is, and there are still many, many things left for us to do. Only after looking back on the meaning of life, do we realise we were ignorant. Place your sights further, alright?"
Yes..that's all we need. Place our sight further. Beyond the boundaries of the sky. Because our dream is really the extension of ourself. Our dream lead us the way in this life. Where to headed and what to do..And I believe in the power of dream. Dream and keep dreaming..you may get what you least expected. Just never stop dreaming
TKA is trully a MASTERPIECE. TKA is not a drama. TKA is the portrait of LIFE itself. There are moments of happiness, sadness, laughter, joy, dissapointment, loss, regret, cry, hope, sincerity, acceptance, dream and LOVE at its purest form. TKA teach me to cherish more the value of love, friendship and family. TKA helps me to keep my faith on the spirit of love, care, dream and life at the fullest in my heart. I hope that the love and spirit that TKA has brought to us also life in your heart..
Thank you late Tada sensei for creating such wonderful story. I believe it is the story of yours, but now it is our story too. Thanks director Winnie for filmin ISWAK and TKA in such an amazing way that made us really get the love message of life. To my dearest Yi Chen and Xiao Zhong, you are really XQ en ZS. You have shown us that one LOVE that we all can have en create. Xie2 ni men..
And thanks to my dearest sassy for taking the ride of TKA all this time with me. Without you, i may not able to fully understand the beauty and love of TKA. Not to mention many thanks to my dearest friend at forum indosiar (the ones call TKA, arjoe and joe's thread a home). Ada diaz, nayla, super girl, little angel, chiko, lovleaf, lovey_mys en msh byk lg lainnya. Its simply a wonderful journey together, isnt it? Spread your wings of love so wide, dear angels..
It simply a family drama about the early journey of newlyweds, Jiang Zhi Shu and wifey Yuan Xiang Qin. They know each other for 5 years before finally getting married. Zhi Shu is one cold-cool genius guy while Xiang Qin is exactly the opposite. For five years, Xiang Qin tried to win this one person although world-space gap between them. As all fairy tale end, Xiang Qin finally get the love of his life and seems to live happily ever after.
But then...we were shown in this drama that their love story is not a fairy tale. It is a real life with sad, happy, heartbreaking, painful, dissapointed moments. It really touching and heartbreaking. Yet..some of its part really encouraging. Really encouraging.
The first part that touched me is when Zhi Shu asked Xiang Qin during their flight over Guam with private small cassa-plane to stay forward. He said "Only when we fly that high, do we realise how big this world really is, and there are still many, many things left for us to do. Only after looking back on the meaning of life, do we realise we were ignorant. Place your sights further, alright?"
Yes..that's all we need. Place our sight further. Beyond the boundaries of the sky. Because our dream is really the extension of ourself. Our dream lead us the way in this life. Where to headed and what to do..And I believe in the power of dream. Dream and keep dreaming..you may get what you least expected. Just never stop dreaming
TKA is trully a MASTERPIECE. TKA is not a drama. TKA is the portrait of LIFE itself. There are moments of happiness, sadness, laughter, joy, dissapointment, loss, regret, cry, hope, sincerity, acceptance, dream and LOVE at its purest form. TKA teach me to cherish more the value of love, friendship and family. TKA helps me to keep my faith on the spirit of love, care, dream and life at the fullest in my heart. I hope that the love and spirit that TKA has brought to us also life in your heart..
Thank you late Tada sensei for creating such wonderful story. I believe it is the story of yours, but now it is our story too. Thanks director Winnie for filmin ISWAK and TKA in such an amazing way that made us really get the love message of life. To my dearest Yi Chen and Xiao Zhong, you are really XQ en ZS. You have shown us that one LOVE that we all can have en create. Xie2 ni men..
And thanks to my dearest sassy for taking the ride of TKA all this time with me. Without you, i may not able to fully understand the beauty and love of TKA. Not to mention many thanks to my dearest friend at forum indosiar (the ones call TKA, arjoe and joe's thread a home). Ada diaz, nayla, super girl, little angel, chiko, lovleaf, lovey_mys en msh byk lg lainnya. Its simply a wonderful journey together, isnt it? Spread your wings of love so wide, dear angels..
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