My friend.... Saranghaeyo means I Love You

My friend,
I remember the first time I met you
The first time I see you
The first time I hold your hand
The first time you tell me your name

My friend,
I remember the times we spent together
Hours and hours sitting next to each other
Hours and hours eating and eating and eating
Hours and hours just talking to each other

My friend,
I remember the moment we had together
the moment we travel together
the moment we enjoy changing seasons
the moment we spent together

My friend,
now that you will lead your life different than mine
now that you will embrace brighter path in the future
now that you will enjoy the freedom of living
now that you will live separate life from mine

I am wishing you nothing but all the best in life
I am wishing that life will treat you so kind
Cause life has treated me so kind for having you in my life

now, let me say one thing I might never said before
"I will always care for you and cherish you..
I cherish any path you take for your future
and let you do it your way
and will accept whatever way you choose"

Hoping for your happiness and success
while hoping for you to know that I will always be here for you
I will always be here with open arms if your need it
Because you are my friend, my friend..

As one kindly remind me that,
"sincerity in love means knowing to stop somewhere in life and nowhere in heart"

What is that one thing

What is one thing that is free of charge?

We can create it free of charge
We can create it when we are conscious
We can also create it when we are unconscious

Those who are poor can create it
As well as those who are rich

Those who are educated can create it
And those who even cannot read can create it

We can keep it
But we can also forget it

We can make it it
But we can also forget it

We can make it
Or keep it as it is

What is that?

18 December 2009

縁, the bond between us

縁（えん/en), in Japanese it means bond or connection or emotional ties. A bond between two person. A destiny that lead them into a crossing in life.

An bond that creates unique connection between people. a bond of family, a bond of friendship, a bond between student-teacher, a bond between bos-staff, a bond between shop owner-customer, even a bond between people who just cross the street at the same time and never meet again in their lifetime.

Have you ever read a novel called "the five people you meet in heaven"? The book tell us a story about a man who just passed away. He then went to heaven where he had to cross through 5 rooms, to meet 5 people. The 5 people will explain him his true life even if this man didin't realize that they were indeed in his life.

So strange human relationship, that we never know what people in our life will do for us and us for them. But I believe that people are coming into our life for a reason, bringing something for us to learn, to experience. We are lead to those who help us most to grow if we let them to. Sadly, no one of us have a map to tell what role will that person have in our life or vice versa. No guidelines of what we do too. Like the man in the book, we are all clueless. Clueless to a simple event and a meeting with one person might change our life forever.

Well, I don't know either. Who among the 300.000 people that I might encounter in my life will teach me the most or vice versa. What will their role in our life. As the book try tell us, each and every one of them have their own role in our life and we are in their life. Maybe we will meet them again or maybe not. Who can say?

Today, I finished some document to rule out my plan for departure from Japan after finishing the master degree. The bell just hit home! It has been two years since I came to Japan and I am leaving Japan soon. Time went so fast. Then I ask myself, will I meet all these wonderful person again in my life? Will someday I have a chance to hug them again? Talk to them again? To see their face again? I heart hurt thinking about that

When Ayana tell me that there is an EN, a bond between us, I believe that whether we will meet again or not, we will be bonded forever. In a bond that unique from one to another. That in each bond will bring us smile and joy, sadness and tears, laugh and hugs, smile and kiss. In Indonesian, we call it, "jodoh".

For everyone in life is indeed special.

Home is where good friends and food are

there is an old quotation in indonesia. it says `win your beloved one`s love with food`. lets make it simple.. from food with love! waakakakakakaka... well, as I realize that this come from someone who loves food soo muuuccch... you can believe it. But you are very much welcome not to ;p

Me, very much lucky today to have full lunch and dinner with Indonesian food. Oh God... I really feel like home. Pak Cahyo is celebrating his brithday and Pak Agus just set his foot back to this city, a home to Japan`s most beautiful ladies - one said. Yaaaayyy... so happy. Plus when we had dance rehearsal, we had Indonesian snack. Yeepppyyy... Oh, how much food can make us happy, ne? hahahahahhaa....

What make me happy is that we share so many good jokes tonight. Pak Agus told us, that once he had a discussion with friends who studies at Rits School of Policy Science. Not long after that, a friend came along the discussion and asked what they were talking about. Pak Agus, who seems to have the jokes of all, said that they just talked about Rits Graduate School of Policy Sciences. Pak Agus said that they were talking about POLISI. In Indonesian word, POLISI means police officer. Soo ... when you said the word `policy` in indonesian, you can mistaken it for polisi. in suuumm... Rits Graduate School for Policy Science is a school for police officer ;p

have a nice weekend, everybody ^_^

originally written on November 2, 2008

why do we become stranger

It felt like we never talk to each other
It felt like we never had fun conversation over the phone
It felt like never shared laughter and funny jokes
It felt like we never told each other to keep the deep dark secret
It felt like we never share a glance of which meaning is only us know what
It even felt like you never been in my life

Please tell me
Why do we become stranger as we are today?

Wish we can go back to our good old days
Wish we can be good friend again
Wish you can come back into my life again

I miss you
Do you miss me too?

Once we fly so high...

I just finished watched one of my fave TV serials named "They Kiss Again". Referring to its tittle, believe me people..its not a X-rated serials!

It simply a family drama about the early journey of newlyweds, Jiang Zhi Shu and wifey Yuan Xiang Qin. They know each other for 5 years before finally getting married. Zhi Shu is one cold-cool genius guy while Xiang Qin is exactly the opposite. For five years, Xiang Qin tried to win this one person although world-space gap between them. As all fairy tale end, Xiang Qin finally get the love of his life and seems to live happily ever after.

But then...we were shown in this drama that their love story is not a fairy tale. It is a real life with sad, happy, heartbreaking, painful, dissapointed moments. It really touching and heartbreaking. Yet..some of its part really encouraging. Really encouraging.

The first part that touched me is when Zhi Shu asked Xiang Qin during their flight over Guam with private small cassa-plane to stay forward. He said "Only when we fly that high, do we realise how big this world really is, and there are still many, many things left for us to do. Only after looking back on the meaning of life, do we realise we were ignorant. Place your sights further, alright?"

Yes..that's all we need. Place our sight further. Beyond the boundaries of the sky. Because our dream is really the extension of ourself. Our dream lead us the way in this life. Where to headed and what to do..And I believe in the power of dream. Dream and keep dreaming..you may get what you least expected. Just never stop dreaming

TKA is trully a MASTERPIECE. TKA is not a drama. TKA is the portrait of LIFE itself. There are moments of happiness, sadness, laughter, joy, dissapointment, loss, regret, cry, hope, sincerity, acceptance, dream and LOVE at its purest form. TKA teach me to cherish more the value of love, friendship and family. TKA helps me to keep my faith on the spirit of love, care, dream and life at the fullest in my heart. I hope that the love and spirit that TKA has brought to us also life in your heart..

Thank you late Tada sensei for creating such wonderful story. I believe it is the story of yours, but now it is our story too. Thanks director Winnie for filmin ISWAK and TKA in such an amazing way that made us really get the love message of life. To my dearest Yi Chen and Xiao Zhong, you are really XQ en ZS. You have shown us that one LOVE that we all can have en create. Xie2 ni men..

And thanks to my dearest sassy for taking the ride of TKA all this time with me. Without you, i may not able to fully understand the beauty and love of TKA. Not to mention many thanks to my dearest friend at forum indosiar (the ones call TKA, arjoe and joe's thread a home). Ada diaz, nayla, super girl, little angel, chiko, lovleaf, lovey_mys en msh byk lg lainnya. Its simply a wonderful journey together, isnt it? Spread your wings of love so wide, dear angels..

Kejutan ultah yang "gagal"

Tanggal 5 April yang lalu, sahabat terbaikku, Ayu ULTAAHHH....
Happy brithday, Yu...
Saengil Chukaheyo...Tanjoubi Omedetto...Zhu Ni Sheng Ri Kuai Le...

Wish you all the best of luck, big prosperity, wonderful life and beautiful husband...
semoga Tuhan melapangkan semua jalan yang ada di depanmu..dan semoga dirimu terus menjadi dirimu yang seutuhnya..
baik, cerdas, menyenangkan, empatis, loving and caring, cerewet, suka cerita
mudah tersentuh, dan suka makan ^^
thank you so much for being my best friend. and thanks again for being yourself always...
love ya sis...we believe we can fly, ne...

Nah yang special adalah Ayu merayakannya di hari dia ujian masuk S2 psikologi. dia jadinya nginep di tempat gw karena akan repot untuk berangkat terlalu pagi dari rumah. nah! malemnya kan pas pergantian dari tanggal 4 ke 5, saatnya buat surprise dong..kapan lagi bisa merayakan ultah pas jam 12 sahabat sendiri....ya tho???
Niatnya..gw nyetel lagu "happy birthday" versi lain..yg gw pake lagunya Lee Hom dari DVD...
naaahh...pas gw stel lag u itu..si Ayu masih aja nyerocos cerita, padahal tu cerita udah mulai dari jam 11..
rasanya tangan gw dah gatel banget..padahal kan jelas2 suara tivi ada happy birthdaynya..

sampai akhirnya..gw musti nyetop tu bocah ngomong dan bilang
"HAPPPPYYYYY BIIIRRTTHHDDAAAAAYYY"
sembari nyodorin kado buat dia...
tentu aja dia ngakak-ngakak gitu...
habis itu. langsung deh gw jelasin kenapa gw nyeyel lagu itu..
dan tu anak hebatnya ternyata ga nyadar saking seriusnya cerita
wwkaaakakakakaakakakakaka...

ampun deh Ayu...segitu semangatnya cerita ampe temennya ini mau ngucapin met ultah aja ga bisa
surprise nya gagal deh...
hahaahahahahahahahahaha....
at least, ini jadi memori kocak buat persahabatan kita...

once again, happy belated brithday ayu...
good luck ya untuk semua impian dan cita-citamu...
i believe you can spread your wings so wide....