#1 Die Hard Zemi Tumbler

One and Only Tumbler

By far my most favorite tumbler. This tumbler is specially made for me and my beloved zemi members gave it to me during gasshuku, right before the final presentation of my thesis. I am forever happy to know that I have such an amazing friends and I am happy their memories live with me forever through this tumbler

Me: Fangirl by Heart & Choice ^^

Today, I found an interesting article from a blog (http://hyimnoni.wordpress.com/2011/10/17/what-a-psychologist-says-about-fangirlsfanboys/). Written in that blog, an article that a psychologist says about fangirl and fanboys for Korean celebrities. I guess it was written in Chinese before getting translated to English and Indonesian.

And guess what? That's so ME!! hahahahaha...

Below is what the article says about fangirl/fanboys:
A psychologist says: “Don’t underestimate those children who chase after Korean celebrities, their hearts are purer than anyone else, they love courageously, they will want to try their best to tackle difficult obstacles, the language and cultural barriers. They symbolise peace, they don’t discriminate based on race, they befriend people with the same interest from different countries, they’re more passionate and warm than anyone else. They don’t betray the ones they like easily, they are persistent and don’t give up easily. They are stronger than anyone else on the inside, because when they are loving these Korean stars, they experience the setbacks they’ve never experienced in life. They are all sensitive children, easily touched to tears for a long time because of one incident.

Through investigation, most of them understand gratitude. Their way of thinking is different from others, they don’t easily get carried away by love, they don’t harbour thoughts of doing bad things, and their criteria when looking for a partner is very high, other than looks, personality is more important, so the rate of marriage isn’t high, but neither is the rate of divorce.

Their memory is very good, they can easily remember the korean lyrics they don’t understand, and their coordination skills are also very strong. Most of them are cheerful children, not the kind who keep to themselves. Their will of determination is also very strong, they are able to persevere all the way just to buy something related to the celebrity they like.

In short, the way these children think is vastly different from others, and their thoughts are not easy to understand. Generally, only those who have similar interests are able to enter their world.”


I feel so much related to the article. I have been so open to the world than I am truly an avid fangirl of Asian Music. You name the song, I might know it. You name the artist, I might recognize them by heart. I have been listening to their song since junior high, when I am simpy 12/13 years old in a country where Chinese language was banned. I started by listening to all Cantonese song from HongKong singers. Then I moved all over, with Japanese singers, Taiwanese and recently Korean.

To put it shorter, I am an avid fan of SHINee and not to mention my lifetime crush and admiration for Fernando Alonso.

Being an avid fan of some other people for more than half my life, I feel almost all the writers trying to explain about how fangirl and fanboys think. It took a courage to like some artist. My first lesson learned came from a friend that says "he doesn't even know you are alive in the world! why on earth do you like them??". Then why on earth do I continue to do so? Cause liking someone who doesn't know me is a courage of itself. A courage that I learn so early as a kid. A courage to simply love myself and thus if I am capable of loving myself, I am able to love others as much.

Second, being an avid fangirl, I learn early in life how to safe and sacrifice. When my parent simply refused to fund me so that I can buy casette, CD and later DVD, I learned how to safe from my pocket monet and work part time. Fangirl means early learning to financial management. Some may fail but I do feel that I am lucky to learn that I learn alot how to manage my money without losing the good way of spending it. And I am still spending..

Mostly it goes on SHINee's collection. I have all the CDs and DVDs, both released in Korea and Japan. I took it seriously that I managed to get some collection of original tees that come during SHINee World Concert in Nanjing. Tough I have to admit that it comes in small size. Mine you, I got it in China so go figure. At least I can use it for a motivation for some fat-burning exercise. But that's it.

Oh, I went to Formula 1 in Suzuka in 2009. What an incredible journey it was. After  5 years of claiming myself an Alonso fangirl, I never once imagined that I could met him in person and watch the live match. And I love the game! My mom used to ask why I like this game of cars circling around and looks aimless. But like is like.. so be it.

Third, being an avid fangirl you can simply project yourself tottering the globe. A good dream for a change since your idols might only perform outside your country like in my very own case. Dreaming of meeting SHINee and Fernando Alonso, I managed to travel all the way to Nanjing (with a meeting with bestie as a huuggee bonus) and Japan. It was a great experience and I will repeat all over again. Now, each time I wanted to make a travel plan, I will first search the possible concert date or race day. Simply because its like killing two birds with one stone. You can see your idols and get your own adventure in far away land.

So, don't be afraid of being a fangirl. Just like I do =)

FIGHTING!!

Tumbler Collection #3: Korea Hangeul Edition

This is one of my most favorite tumbler. I found it when I went to Seoul and like it the moment I get my hands on it. Very classic and you will not find it other than Korea 

Oden after Morning Run

small breakfast after a morning run? Tell that to a bowl of hot boiling yummy oden ^^

If you ever wonder where I got Oden in Indonesia, I found it in one of the new chain of convenient store in Blora. I didn't mean to go there actually. But when I passed it, I remembered my friend saying that I could found onigiri there. I got what I wanted and I got shocked that they also sell oden! I grabbed them at once and walked home half-running. A good breakfast to begin my weekend ^^

First On-Board Travel with ThaiAir : not that pleasant one

Maybe I get too used to Garuda Indonesia, flying with Thai Airways feels suck. I was exited actually to fly with Thai air since this would be my first time flying with them. Trying a new airline is always fun. Plus, many consider thai air to be an excellent airlines, better that Garuda Indonesia? They are even a member of star alliance, one group with a buddy like Singapore Air. But sadly, I am disappointed.

Okay, let's get down to the reason behind it. When the office booked me a seat with Thai air for a 3.5 hours flight to Bangkok, I was expecting full inflight entertainment. That's not what I got. No screen in front of me and only big screen in the cabin. Fine then.. So I turned to their inflight audio. And I was disappointed. Since I am a sucker for east Asian music, I went directly to Chinese and japanese channel. First off, I didnt get my Japanese Chanel and the Chinese channel plays only old musics, old enough not to be called latest and greatest as advertised. So, I turned on my iPod.

My next disappointment came later when the stewardess took more than 30 minutes just to give me the pen that I wished to borrow. Not to disappoint her tough, a passenger next to me is kind enough to lend me one.

I spent the time writing on my travel book, long enough until I realized the passenger next to me got served with special seafood serving (as requested, as I learned later). Again to my disappointment, it took a full 15 minutes before they got me. So, here's the thing about food serving on board with Thai air. Serve the requested food first and give the other non- requested later on. As if, the one who didn't order firsthand is not important. Suck!!!

In addition to that, I almost went viral when they didn't give us a water alongside our food. Man, come on.. Do you expect people to eat and eat, and no drink in between? What drove me crazy was that they went around asking other passengers if they wish to have wine. WHHYYY?? Only good 10 minutes later, just when I was about to finish my meal that they came to my row asking what I would like to drink. And when I zipped it in seconds, they ignored me when I asked for a second serving to mineral water. Great, you call that an excellent serving? What saved them from me yelling Them is good blueberry mouse dessert.

So, if you ask me will I take Thai air next time I fly to Bangkok, I will go with other choice. I will even put Garuda as my first choice. I guess,that explains why I was on the waiting list when I asked for garuda before I finally got Thai air ticket. And maybe, that also proves that Garuda maybe really deserve a tittle of most improved airlines by skytrax .  A tittle that I had doubted till the moment I was on board with Thai Air.


P.s. the return flight to Jakarta wasn't as bad as the one to Bangkok. No light on the cabin showing passenger unattended needs. And I got my inflight entertainment which made me a little happy camper on board

What I missed!

Been away in Bangkok for 9 days and these are what I missed during the vacation:
1. My cousin's bday blast
2. Hundreds of emails
3. Four BBM Messages
4. My friend's wedding
5. Tons of SHINee's videos unattended

But I got what I always wanted: meeting SHINee boys again! ahahaha..sounds creepy but I was having a blast in Bangkok, attending KMW and seeing Taemin playing piano and the boys' sherlock choreo. It was a short meeting but I am happy all over

Tough I am sad with my iPod, but SHINee has thought me to become strong always independent. So, what can I ask for more! I made some entries over the trip so I will update them bit by bit =)

Mixing business with shawol pleasure

Off to Bangkok today. 楽しみにしています＼(^o^)／ 明日はshineeのコンセット! Can you imagine that? A month before I wouldn't expect myself to have another opportunity to see the boys again. So happy..

Actually, my trip to Bangkok this time is not for shinee boys. I was selected to attend Special Learning Program in Bangkok from 9-12 April 2012. I was ecstatic to enroll since I have been wanting to attend Internalworkshop from the first days I joined the office. As an officer whose job into give lectures and manage workshops, I always eager to learn from the regional trainer on how they manage their internal workshops. Let's be honest here, I've been running out of idea for introduction session and refreshment. An example from regional trainer would be mostly welcomed.

So, how could I not feel super exited when the opportunity finally came with my boss recommended me and I finally got accepted to the program?

Silly enough, my first wish is actually about shinee boys. Hehehehehe.. Call me crazy, but all I can mutter from my mount is a hope that there will be a shinee concert. And I got just what I wished for!

Some weeks after my acceptance announcement, I read an article that says that Bangkok will host its largest k-pop concert on 7th April. It means that I can enjoy it as well if I departed to bkk earlier since I have to be there on 8th anyway. The bad news was that no shinee on their list of performer. Meaning I have less desire to come to the concert no matter how much I like k-pop music. I will come only if shinee performs.

Well, there is a saying that goes like this : be careful for what you wish for, you might really get it. And what I get is what I wish for. Shinee was put on list two weeks after I found the article. Can you imagine how crazy I became the moment I read that news? I dig deep into the net and look for a way to purchase the ticket. God mercy, I found a way and pretty much a happy camper with the way the ticket is sold. I got myself a VIP seat, nearest to the stage. I am all happy.. But the excitement doesn't stop there. In March, shinee was having their comeback in Korea. Meaning, new song, new performance. Yaaaaayyyy.. After their new song called Sherlock was released on 9 March, I am all happy to learn that I will see their new performance live, first hand. Exiteeedd.. Their Sherlock choreography is amazing! And I hope they sing Honesty, which is my fave from the mini album.

Honesty..

Me and my IPod

To let go of something that has been your best buddy for 6 years is not easy

I flew to Bangkok today with a feeling of joy. Cause this is my first time here and my first workshop with Unhcr. Plus, I have a chance to see shinee boys. What can I asked for more? 

Yes, a feeling of losing and despair. After I reached my hotel in Siam, I didn't go check my bag and stuff. I went straight into twitter and Facebook with my iPad. Without realizing that something has been missing. An important part of my life that has been with me for the past 6 years. 

My iPod, my little friend.. 

My iPod has been with me for 6 years. I still remember the day when it entered my life for the first time. Someone was so kind to give it to me as a token of appreciation for my work. A beautiful present that left me speechless for many days afterwards. I had less money at the time while struggle to save some for the future. So, an iPod as an unexpected present was more than I can ask for. 

Knowing how much it worth that days, I kept on restraining myself from using it. But finally, i decided to use it and I never spent a day without it since. Even until today, the day I finally lost my iPod. Somewhere in thailand, now my IPod lies. 

I cried.. And as I call Thai's lost and found, they confirmed my iPod was not in the airplane. So, where it went missing? I don't know.. I really don't know.. I cried again but nothing is changed. Nothing.. My iPod remains missing and I missed it so much now.. 

It feels like I lost a soulmate. My iPod was always with me. Traveled with me everywhere. Literally everywhere. Sometimes I forgot to bring it, but only sometimes. It was there when I had a good time. It was there too when the times were rough for me. It always was there with me, through bad and good times. My sanctuary, my comfort pole. The songs restored there are witness to my ups and down. My saving grace. It never complained but one time when I need to reset it. But it never disappointed me.. So silent in keeping my hand and my heart.

I remember crying in the plane, in the bus, in the train along side with it. I remember singing, dancing and enjoying the moments with it. It is such a wonderful soulmate, gave me a sense of comfort that I can always run to. Its also a witness to my changing moods. Maybe it complained back then. How can a person be such a moody, happy in the morning but sad in the night. How come this silly girl cried over a song that's not even her love song. It must be confused and had a tough time with me. 

But I never thought about that until the day I lost it.. So much pains, it dented in my heart. Will my heart ever recover? Mom said I can.. Yes, maybe I can. But I certainly do not know when. 

Thank you soulmate. It's been a pleasure to spend 6 years together. Though bad and goods. Through ups and down. Together we sailed a good life. Now that you might have docked somewhere, I know I have to move on. Thank you.. Thank you for being with me all this times. Our moments together is precious. Thank you.. Thank you.. 

P.s. God.. I thank You too.. For giving me such a wonderful friend. Now its your turn to be my friend.. Be patient with me God.. I still a moody person as I was before. Please lead me to good. Amin